No WOD again this morning. Sick. Not at all happy about this. :(
Breakfast:
eggs/ham
black coffee
Lunch:
Don't recall having lunch.
Dinner:
beef fajitas
margarita
Oh, and I did take Wes for ice cream before dinner. Parenting WIN!!! I also helped myself to 2 scoops. Boo :(
Friday, October 29, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Thursday, October 28th
No WOD today. Woke up feeling terrible....congestion, sore and scratchy throat. I hope this is just allergies....or maybe I'd rather it be a cold since allergies could go on forever....
Breakfast:
eggs w/ ham and a smattering of throat losenges
Lunch:
Central Market chicken breat with celery and Julio's salsa. SO GOOD.
Dinner:
We decided to put off our 10th Anniversary date night to a weekend night, so we took Wes with us to Dough Pizzeria. It was good....the food was really good, but it was small and loud and crowded. Not such a great place for a kid. He was perfectly well-behaved, but it would have been nice to sit at an actual table instead of at the "chef's table" which is essentially a bar. We had this fantastic oak roasted mushroom bruschetta, followed by some truly delicious margherita pizza. Wes was licking the sauce from his, so I knew he enjoyed it.
I'm well aware that none of this is Paleo. Week 4 has been the most challenging week thus far for me. I'd better plan on being 100% for Weeks 5 and 6 if I have any hope of staying in the running.
Breakfast:
eggs w/ ham and a smattering of throat losenges
Lunch:
Central Market chicken breat with celery and Julio's salsa. SO GOOD.
Dinner:
We decided to put off our 10th Anniversary date night to a weekend night, so we took Wes with us to Dough Pizzeria. It was good....the food was really good, but it was small and loud and crowded. Not such a great place for a kid. He was perfectly well-behaved, but it would have been nice to sit at an actual table instead of at the "chef's table" which is essentially a bar. We had this fantastic oak roasted mushroom bruschetta, followed by some truly delicious margherita pizza. Wes was licking the sauce from his, so I knew he enjoyed it.
I'm well aware that none of this is Paleo. Week 4 has been the most challenging week thus far for me. I'd better plan on being 100% for Weeks 5 and 6 if I have any hope of staying in the running.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Wednesday, October 27th
WOD:
"Hydraulics"
2 rounds cals
Max Effort Power Cleans (5-3-3-1-1)
*Maxed at 105 lbs. (my last max was 80 lbs...vast improvement!) I am so excited about this I don't even have appropriate words. Wasn't feeling good going in this morning, but now I feel really, really great! Amazing how a small victory can change your outlook for the whole day.
500 m run
50 KB swings (35 lbs)
30 chin-ups
8:20
Breakfast:
mixed 100% orange/grapefruit juice
eggs w/ bacon
black coffee
Lunch:
Central Market chicken breast, tomato
Dinner:
Hot fudge sundae from Sonic.....I was desperate and weak. And we're not going to talk about it.
Dinner:
"Hydraulics"
2 rounds cals
Max Effort Power Cleans (5-3-3-1-1)
*Maxed at 105 lbs. (my last max was 80 lbs...vast improvement!) I am so excited about this I don't even have appropriate words. Wasn't feeling good going in this morning, but now I feel really, really great! Amazing how a small victory can change your outlook for the whole day.
500 m run
50 KB swings (35 lbs)
30 chin-ups
8:20
Breakfast:
mixed 100% orange/grapefruit juice
eggs w/ bacon
black coffee
Lunch:
Central Market chicken breast, tomato
Dinner:
Hot fudge sundae from Sonic.....I was desperate and weak. And we're not going to talk about it.
Dinner:
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Tuesday, October 26th
No WOD today. Very sad to have missed, but I was exhausted and needed a couple of hours extra sleep. Most mornings I would much rather get up and go but today I just couldn't.
Breakfast:
pecans
Lunch:
chicken breast, green olives, strawberries
Snack:
cashews, strawberries
Dinner:
Alamo Cafe - beef fajita ensalada, no cheese, salsa for dressing
I did have chips and salsa, though.
I also had some ice cream. MUST MUST MUST stop this. Only 3 weeks left in the challenge but I'm not really focused on an end date. I'd rather focus on living Paleo (with the occasional indulgence, not what I've had the past week) and getting faster and stronger as a CrossFitter. I believe whole-heartedly in both and consider this more of a lifestyle than just a six week challenge. Still, I need to be "in" this challenge. So suck it up, sister.
Breakfast:
pecans
Lunch:
chicken breast, green olives, strawberries
Snack:
cashews, strawberries
Dinner:
Alamo Cafe - beef fajita ensalada, no cheese, salsa for dressing
I did have chips and salsa, though.
I also had some ice cream. MUST MUST MUST stop this. Only 3 weeks left in the challenge but I'm not really focused on an end date. I'd rather focus on living Paleo (with the occasional indulgence, not what I've had the past week) and getting faster and stronger as a CrossFitter. I believe whole-heartedly in both and consider this more of a lifestyle than just a six week challenge. Still, I need to be "in" this challenge. So suck it up, sister.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Monday, October 25th
WOD:
"Cindy"
5 pull-ups
10 push-ups
15 air squats
20" AMRAP
15 1/3 rounds
I love this particular WOD, primarily because it helps me work on pull-ups (still with the band) and Rx push-ups and also because it's just fun.
Breakfast:
eggs & ham
black coffee
Lunch:
strawberries, pineapple, jazz apple, cashews
*I had class at 1 pm and didn't want much afterward but was craving fruit.
Snack:
honey toasted pecans....must stop eating these
Dinner:
leftover beef fajita meat, seasoned/sauteed shrimp, avocado, tomato
mixed 100% orange/grapefruit juices
"Cindy"
5 pull-ups
10 push-ups
15 air squats
20" AMRAP
15 1/3 rounds
I love this particular WOD, primarily because it helps me work on pull-ups (still with the band) and Rx push-ups and also because it's just fun.
Breakfast:
eggs & ham
black coffee
Lunch:
strawberries, pineapple, jazz apple, cashews
*I had class at 1 pm and didn't want much afterward but was craving fruit.
Snack:
honey toasted pecans....must stop eating these
Dinner:
leftover beef fajita meat, seasoned/sauteed shrimp, avocado, tomato
mixed 100% orange/grapefruit juices
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Beauty in this Mess
"When it's said and done and this race is run,
I wanna go out with no regrets.
Hope I was proof God was the Truth
and you could see beauty in this mess."
I know without a doubt that there is purpose in my struggles. I don't always see it, and sometimes I forget about it entirely, but when I look back I know it's there....somewhere.
Yesterday we had the absolute privilege of being in the presence of US Army Sgt. Joel Tavera at church. In 2008, his humvee was hit and 3 of his fellow soldiers were killed. Sgt. Tavera lost a leg, four fingers, pieces of his skull, was burned over 60% of his body, and lost all eyesight.
As he was led to the stage and given a seat, I wondered what he had looked like before. I wondered if there was bitterness. Those thoughts went away in seconds. If he was nervous, it didn't show. He answered questions from Randy and talked a little bit about his life now. He spoke somewhat slowly until Randy asked him about his favorite verse, Hebrews 4:12. Sgt. Tavera rattled the verse off as if nothing could ever make him forget it. "For the Word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword...."
Living and active. Sgt. Tavera said that when he woke up from his coma he had a choice to make. He could succumb to the depression that was sinking in, or he could live and fulfill his purpose. He wasn't done. He chose to live.
I noticed something during the slideshow of photographs that was played during the service. Sgt. Tavera has a beautiful smile. A genuine smile. I didn't notice his injuries anymore, just his smile. He gave so much in service for our country, and yet he's not done. God has more for him and wants more from him. Sgt. Tavera now serves as an encouragement for others. I don't know if that's officially what he does, but it's what he did for me.
I had a choice to make last year. I could continue on the path of self-destruction, giving up on life, my family, my friends...or I could start on the path back to living the life that God gave me. God allowed me to walk through that dark valley for as long as it took to realize what I was doing. But he never left me. He NEVER left me.
When I called out for Him after that long silence, He didn't answer me with anger. He just loved me. He just loved me. He showed me that I have a purpose. He showed me that there is "beauty in this mess."
I've learned to let people be who they are and try to love them anyway. I've learned acceptance and perseverance. I've learned to listen. I've learned that sometimes, all a person needs is a kind word. And I've learned that sometimes, I need to be the person that gives it to them. I've learned that my family is my everything. I've learned that I can do a lot more than I ever thought possible. I've learned that sometimes I just need to be quiet. I've learned that Mama never stops praying for me. I've learned that Daddy never stops, either. I've learned that my brother is one of the strongest and most beautiful people I have ever known. I've learned that my sister has the heart of a lion. I've learned that my husband has patience and love far above anything I deserve. And I've learned that my child....my child....loves with the greatest enthusiasm and forgives with a heart like Jesus.
I.Am.Blessed.
I wanna go out with no regrets.
Hope I was proof God was the Truth
and you could see beauty in this mess."
I know without a doubt that there is purpose in my struggles. I don't always see it, and sometimes I forget about it entirely, but when I look back I know it's there....somewhere.
Yesterday we had the absolute privilege of being in the presence of US Army Sgt. Joel Tavera at church. In 2008, his humvee was hit and 3 of his fellow soldiers were killed. Sgt. Tavera lost a leg, four fingers, pieces of his skull, was burned over 60% of his body, and lost all eyesight.
As he was led to the stage and given a seat, I wondered what he had looked like before. I wondered if there was bitterness. Those thoughts went away in seconds. If he was nervous, it didn't show. He answered questions from Randy and talked a little bit about his life now. He spoke somewhat slowly until Randy asked him about his favorite verse, Hebrews 4:12. Sgt. Tavera rattled the verse off as if nothing could ever make him forget it. "For the Word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword...."
Living and active. Sgt. Tavera said that when he woke up from his coma he had a choice to make. He could succumb to the depression that was sinking in, or he could live and fulfill his purpose. He wasn't done. He chose to live.
I noticed something during the slideshow of photographs that was played during the service. Sgt. Tavera has a beautiful smile. A genuine smile. I didn't notice his injuries anymore, just his smile. He gave so much in service for our country, and yet he's not done. God has more for him and wants more from him. Sgt. Tavera now serves as an encouragement for others. I don't know if that's officially what he does, but it's what he did for me.
I had a choice to make last year. I could continue on the path of self-destruction, giving up on life, my family, my friends...or I could start on the path back to living the life that God gave me. God allowed me to walk through that dark valley for as long as it took to realize what I was doing. But he never left me. He NEVER left me.
When I called out for Him after that long silence, He didn't answer me with anger. He just loved me. He just loved me. He showed me that I have a purpose. He showed me that there is "beauty in this mess."
I've learned to let people be who they are and try to love them anyway. I've learned acceptance and perseverance. I've learned to listen. I've learned that sometimes, all a person needs is a kind word. And I've learned that sometimes, I need to be the person that gives it to them. I've learned that my family is my everything. I've learned that I can do a lot more than I ever thought possible. I've learned that sometimes I just need to be quiet. I've learned that Mama never stops praying for me. I've learned that Daddy never stops, either. I've learned that my brother is one of the strongest and most beautiful people I have ever known. I've learned that my sister has the heart of a lion. I've learned that my husband has patience and love far above anything I deserve. And I've learned that my child....my child....loves with the greatest enthusiasm and forgives with a heart like Jesus.
I.Am.Blessed.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Saturday/Sunday, October 23rd & 24th
Saturday
Breakfast:
eggs, ham, strawberries
black coffee
Good start, right? Just wait......
Lunch:
This is where things fell apart. I took Wes to get a haircut only to find out the wait would be 2 hours. Booked the available slot and took him next door to Baskin Robbins for ice cream....his request. I wanted some so badly but managed restraint. We ran a couple of errands and I realized that I forgot to bring anything in the way of Paleo-friendly food with me. Headache was coming on and I was not feeling so great. I drove to Chick-fil-A, intent on getting a fruit cup and another cup of coffee only to find about 20 cars in the drive-thru and the inside packed. WTH???? Wes asked for Wendy's. And here we have the great Parenting/Paleo Fail of October 23rd. I got a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger...because it was small and also $1.29. And a Coke. Proceeded to carry on with errands....
Dinner:
Now, see, here is where my earlier fail affected my thought process. J came home and I was able to leave the house for a couple of hours by myself. It was much needed, but I failed yet again to carry anything in the form of nourishment. I didn't even bring water. I ALWAYS carry water. Dumbass. J called and asked what I was planning for dinner. Valid question. I did not have a valid answer. In my mind I had already written the day off as a disaster, so I suggested pizza....it being easy and already made. The boys were thrilled to eat crap for dinner. I personally would welcome the opportunity to vomit now if it would make me feel any less awful. I only ate 1.5 slices of pizza. But then I had chips....those ranch-seasoned Doritos thingies. And now I am making myself sick just thinking about them again.
Stay Paleo, people. Just stay Paleo.
Sunday
Breakfast:
black coffee
Lunch:
Baby shower food....there was this delicious Mexican dip and chips and then I had strawberries and pineapple. One of these chocolate dipped oreo things and a cookie. And half a piece of cake. It was from The Cake Shoppe....totally worth it. I knew this would be a challenge but I embraced it as sort of a day off, not necessarily earned but still needed in order to make this challenge livable.
Dinner:
Shrimp, avocado
Watermelon
Breakfast:
eggs, ham, strawberries
black coffee
Good start, right? Just wait......
Lunch:
This is where things fell apart. I took Wes to get a haircut only to find out the wait would be 2 hours. Booked the available slot and took him next door to Baskin Robbins for ice cream....his request. I wanted some so badly but managed restraint. We ran a couple of errands and I realized that I forgot to bring anything in the way of Paleo-friendly food with me. Headache was coming on and I was not feeling so great. I drove to Chick-fil-A, intent on getting a fruit cup and another cup of coffee only to find about 20 cars in the drive-thru and the inside packed. WTH???? Wes asked for Wendy's. And here we have the great Parenting/Paleo Fail of October 23rd. I got a Jr. Bacon Cheeseburger...because it was small and also $1.29. And a Coke. Proceeded to carry on with errands....
Dinner:
Now, see, here is where my earlier fail affected my thought process. J came home and I was able to leave the house for a couple of hours by myself. It was much needed, but I failed yet again to carry anything in the form of nourishment. I didn't even bring water. I ALWAYS carry water. Dumbass. J called and asked what I was planning for dinner. Valid question. I did not have a valid answer. In my mind I had already written the day off as a disaster, so I suggested pizza....it being easy and already made. The boys were thrilled to eat crap for dinner. I personally would welcome the opportunity to vomit now if it would make me feel any less awful. I only ate 1.5 slices of pizza. But then I had chips....those ranch-seasoned Doritos thingies. And now I am making myself sick just thinking about them again.
Stay Paleo, people. Just stay Paleo.
Sunday
Breakfast:
black coffee
Lunch:
Baby shower food....there was this delicious Mexican dip and chips and then I had strawberries and pineapple. One of these chocolate dipped oreo things and a cookie. And half a piece of cake. It was from The Cake Shoppe....totally worth it. I knew this would be a challenge but I embraced it as sort of a day off, not necessarily earned but still needed in order to make this challenge livable.
Dinner:
Shrimp, avocado
Watermelon
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday, October 22nd
WOD:
"Chunky Monkey"
2 rounds cals
2" max kettle bell swings (55 @ 35lbs)
500 m row
21 deadlifts
500 m run
15 deadlifts
500 m row
9 deadlifts
12:57 (85 lbs)
Breakfast:
mixed fruit
maple almonds/pecans (technically, this is cheating)
Lunch:
Roast/carrots/sweet potato/mushrooms
Dinner:
Beef/chicken fajitas, guacamole, salsa
"Chunky Monkey"
2 rounds cals
2" max kettle bell swings (55 @ 35lbs)
500 m row
21 deadlifts
500 m run
15 deadlifts
500 m row
9 deadlifts
12:57 (85 lbs)
Breakfast:
mixed fruit
maple almonds/pecans (technically, this is cheating)
Lunch:
Roast/carrots/sweet potato/mushrooms
Dinner:
Beef/chicken fajitas, guacamole, salsa
Thursday, October 21, 2010
That's nice, but.....
So, I noticed something the other day. I have a waist again. Week 3 and that was my first indication of change during this challenge, other than having to tighten my belt again....I guess those two go together. It's a nice change, it is. But sometimes I wish I could accept one change without all of the self-criticism that comes along with it.
In noticing I have a smaller waist, I also notice that it makes me look like I have bigger hips. And bigger boobs...which I don't need. Don't get me wrong, I have great boobs. I just have never been comfortable with the whole hour-glass thing. I hate the term "hour-glass", actually. Please don't use it.
I have this habit of trying to stretch out shirts right after I put them on, just so they don't cling to anything. My husband tells me that I don't need to do this. But I do. It's the self-conscious part of me that compels. And I am nothing if not self-conscious. I wish I could take a cue from my sweet 5 year old and state that "I like the way God maked me." I'll have to work on that....
And speaking of working....I worry that I feel like I'm not really "working" this challenge. I started to feel pretty low about it, and I would still feel low about it, except that I realized this morning that maybe it's not that difficult because I already live Paleo. Sure, I had my pre-challenge freakout wherein I consumed close to my weight in ice cream. I admit that was entirely silly, but at least it wasn't the norm.
While it seems that everyone else struggles with the diet, I struggle with the workouts. I've made a conscious effort this week to gauge my input (lifting heavier, sprinting longer, fewer breaks during pull-ups) in an effort to maximize the outcome. Overall, I'm feeling better, albeit very sore. And those smaller jeans I bought last month? Pulled them off and back on last night without unbuttoning them. I guess I can live with the smaller waist....until the Lulu shorts fall off....which they might....soon. :)
In noticing I have a smaller waist, I also notice that it makes me look like I have bigger hips. And bigger boobs...which I don't need. Don't get me wrong, I have great boobs. I just have never been comfortable with the whole hour-glass thing. I hate the term "hour-glass", actually. Please don't use it.
I have this habit of trying to stretch out shirts right after I put them on, just so they don't cling to anything. My husband tells me that I don't need to do this. But I do. It's the self-conscious part of me that compels. And I am nothing if not self-conscious. I wish I could take a cue from my sweet 5 year old and state that "I like the way God maked me." I'll have to work on that....
And speaking of working....I worry that I feel like I'm not really "working" this challenge. I started to feel pretty low about it, and I would still feel low about it, except that I realized this morning that maybe it's not that difficult because I already live Paleo. Sure, I had my pre-challenge freakout wherein I consumed close to my weight in ice cream. I admit that was entirely silly, but at least it wasn't the norm.
While it seems that everyone else struggles with the diet, I struggle with the workouts. I've made a conscious effort this week to gauge my input (lifting heavier, sprinting longer, fewer breaks during pull-ups) in an effort to maximize the outcome. Overall, I'm feeling better, albeit very sore. And those smaller jeans I bought last month? Pulled them off and back on last night without unbuttoning them. I guess I can live with the smaller waist....until the Lulu shorts fall off....which they might....soon. :)
Thursday, October 21st
WOD:
"TT for Now"
2 rounds cals
2" partner slam balls
2000 m row - time trial
(9:35.0)
1 mile run - time trial
(9:53)
*No excuses for these sucky performances. They just sucked. (Fastest mile I have ever timed was 8:14...would be THRILLED to get back to that.) Mind is elsewhere today. Was feeling great but woke up with a lot of pain in lower back. Probably need to get myself one of those epsom salt and eucalyptus oil baths....sometime.
Breakfast:
2 small spiced apple muffins
leftover roast from yesterday....craving protein
black coffee
Lunch:
roast, carrots, sweet potato, mushrooms again
mandarins
Dinner:
Eggs w/ ham
cinnamon graham Goldfish (I know they're not Paleo)
"TT for Now"
2 rounds cals
2" partner slam balls
2000 m row - time trial
(9:35.0)
1 mile run - time trial
(9:53)
*No excuses for these sucky performances. They just sucked. (Fastest mile I have ever timed was 8:14...would be THRILLED to get back to that.) Mind is elsewhere today. Was feeling great but woke up with a lot of pain in lower back. Probably need to get myself one of those epsom salt and eucalyptus oil baths....sometime.
Breakfast:
2 small spiced apple muffins
leftover roast from yesterday....craving protein
black coffee
Lunch:
roast, carrots, sweet potato, mushrooms again
mandarins
Dinner:
Eggs w/ ham
cinnamon graham Goldfish (I know they're not Paleo)
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Wednesday, October 20th
WOD:
"Mr. Shankley"
We started with 3-3-3-1-1-1 max push press. I missed lifting the heaviest (for the girls) of the early morning classes by 5 freakin' pounds. Maxed at 75 and just could not get 80 up. Bub told me I should have widened my grip...after the fact. :/ 75 seemed almost easy. 80 should have been totally doable! Grrrrrrr.
THEN, 21-15-9
power snatch
chins
elevated push-ups
12:47 (45 lbs)
Food:
Breakfast:
Spiced Apple Muffins (insert yummy noises here)
mandarin
Lunch:
Roast/carrots/sweet potato/mushrooms. Hubs just earned himself a spot as official roast cooker. 1) because it's delish, and 2) because I didn't have to do it.
Dinner:
Repeat of lunch.
"Mr. Shankley"
We started with 3-3-3-1-1-1 max push press. I missed lifting the heaviest (for the girls) of the early morning classes by 5 freakin' pounds. Maxed at 75 and just could not get 80 up. Bub told me I should have widened my grip...after the fact. :/ 75 seemed almost easy. 80 should have been totally doable! Grrrrrrr.
THEN, 21-15-9
power snatch
chins
elevated push-ups
12:47 (45 lbs)
Food:
Breakfast:
Spiced Apple Muffins (insert yummy noises here)
mandarin
Lunch:
Roast/carrots/sweet potato/mushrooms. Hubs just earned himself a spot as official roast cooker. 1) because it's delish, and 2) because I didn't have to do it.
Dinner:
Repeat of lunch.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Tuesday, October 19th
Hero WOD:
"Badger"
In honor of Navy Chief Petty Officer Mark Carter, 27, of Virginia Beach, VA who was killed in Iraq in December, 2007.
2 rounds cals
30 squat cleans
30 chins
800 m run
3 RFT
40:50 (45 lbs)
I trust that at some point today I shall regain full function of my legs. So glad I didn't miss today. Would love to have finished under 40 minutes but it is what it is. Go harder and heavier next time. Must learn to run faster for longer stretches. I did very nearly smack into one of the visiting Lulu girls doing her yoga stretches in the middle of the running pathway. Feel sort of bad about that. But also sort of don't....
I absolutely am able to squat clean the Rx weight of 65 lbs at this point....I'm just not sure about the whole 90 times thing. Already knew it was going to be a long one. Awesome, awesome WOD. Looking forward to doing it again!
Food:
Breakfast:
lots and lots of water
eggs & ham
black coffee
Lunch:
seasoned chicken breast
mandarin orange
Dinner:
Got home super late and was too tired to cook. Thankfully found a few leftover shrimp and some green olives in the fridge. Baked some Paleo-friendly apple cinnamon muffins. Those hit the spot for my momentary sweet craving.
"Badger"
In honor of Navy Chief Petty Officer Mark Carter, 27, of Virginia Beach, VA who was killed in Iraq in December, 2007.
2 rounds cals
30 squat cleans
30 chins
800 m run
3 RFT
40:50 (45 lbs)
I trust that at some point today I shall regain full function of my legs. So glad I didn't miss today. Would love to have finished under 40 minutes but it is what it is. Go harder and heavier next time. Must learn to run faster for longer stretches. I did very nearly smack into one of the visiting Lulu girls doing her yoga stretches in the middle of the running pathway. Feel sort of bad about that. But also sort of don't....
I absolutely am able to squat clean the Rx weight of 65 lbs at this point....I'm just not sure about the whole 90 times thing. Already knew it was going to be a long one. Awesome, awesome WOD. Looking forward to doing it again!
Food:
Breakfast:
lots and lots of water
eggs & ham
black coffee
Lunch:
seasoned chicken breast
mandarin orange
Dinner:
Got home super late and was too tired to cook. Thankfully found a few leftover shrimp and some green olives in the fridge. Baked some Paleo-friendly apple cinnamon muffins. Those hit the spot for my momentary sweet craving.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Monday, October 18th
WOD:
"Class Warfare"
20" AMRAP of:
15 burpees
20 jumping slamballs
25 sit ups
30 air squats
6:30 a.m. took 2 of the categories (squats and I can't remember what else) but lost them later in the day to the nooners, but this morning was fantastic. So fantastic that my legs actually wobbled. WOBBLED. Burpees are bad, but jumping slamballs are THE SUCK.
I don't think I've mentioned how much I LOVE the 6:30 am class. LOVE LOVE LOVE. I only get to WOD with them about twice a week now, but they are awesome. I do love the 5 am as well....it's just a lot harder to be social at that hour and I feel like sometimes I am barely moving. I love how each class has its own vibe. I also love how easy it has been to float between them.
I love how at home I feel now at ACF. It took me a little while, but that's because of me, not them. I don't warm up to people easily....in fact, my family says I'm a little bit intimidating. When I ask Hubs if he's mad at me he says "No, I'm scared of you." Working on warmth....I'm actually a sparkling creature, I'll have you know. But in all seriousness, I LOVE my ACF tribe. Even the ones I don't know well....because it's just that we haven't had the opportunity to get to know each other yet. This place draws you in. And the people....they make you feel like family. They accept you as family. Nothing better than family, ya'll!
Food:
Breakfast:
leftover roast
mandarin orange
black coffee
Lunch:
beef vegetable soup
mandarin orange (I really do love these)
Snack:
sunflower seeds (about one whopping teaspoon...because I don't really like them much at all)
Dinner:
Pan seared eye of round steak, thinly sliced
avocado
orange juice (all by itself...I ran out of grapefruit juice and I'm sad)
"Class Warfare"
20" AMRAP of:
15 burpees
20 jumping slamballs
25 sit ups
30 air squats
6:30 a.m. took 2 of the categories (squats and I can't remember what else) but lost them later in the day to the nooners, but this morning was fantastic. So fantastic that my legs actually wobbled. WOBBLED. Burpees are bad, but jumping slamballs are THE SUCK.
I don't think I've mentioned how much I LOVE the 6:30 am class. LOVE LOVE LOVE. I only get to WOD with them about twice a week now, but they are awesome. I do love the 5 am as well....it's just a lot harder to be social at that hour and I feel like sometimes I am barely moving. I love how each class has its own vibe. I also love how easy it has been to float between them.
I love how at home I feel now at ACF. It took me a little while, but that's because of me, not them. I don't warm up to people easily....in fact, my family says I'm a little bit intimidating. When I ask Hubs if he's mad at me he says "No, I'm scared of you." Working on warmth....I'm actually a sparkling creature, I'll have you know. But in all seriousness, I LOVE my ACF tribe. Even the ones I don't know well....because it's just that we haven't had the opportunity to get to know each other yet. This place draws you in. And the people....they make you feel like family. They accept you as family. Nothing better than family, ya'll!
Food:
Breakfast:
leftover roast
mandarin orange
black coffee
Lunch:
beef vegetable soup
mandarin orange (I really do love these)
Snack:
sunflower seeds (about one whopping teaspoon...because I don't really like them much at all)
Dinner:
Pan seared eye of round steak, thinly sliced
avocado
orange juice (all by itself...I ran out of grapefruit juice and I'm sad)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Saturday/Sunday, October 16th & 17th
Saturday, October 16th
No WOD
Food:
Paleo candy bar (seriously not making these again)
Breakfast/Lunch:
eggs w/ bacon
mandarin orange
juice
black coffee
Dinner:
Ben's birthday dinner at Texas Roadhouse. Did well by ordering a 6 oz. sirloin steak and baked sweet potato. Did not do well by also ordering a salad with ranch dressing, and then consuming 3 rolls with cinnamon-honey butter. Also had just a few bites of chocolate birthday cake.
*Will NOT be cheating in this way again. Woke up SO SICK in the middle of the night. Not worth it.
Sunday, October 17th
No WOD.
Food:
Breakfast:
Paleo candy bar (I'm so sick of these now)
black coffee
grapefruit
Snacks:
green olives
sm. handful cinnamon graham Goldfish (too hungry...FAIL)
mandarin orange
Dinner:
Garlic and onion seasoned shrimp w/ avocado and sweet potato fries....um, I don't want to brag, but this is the best dinner I've made in a long time. So good.
Rough, rough day. Jason is not well and stayed in bed. I took Wes to the UTSA library with me....adventurous for a 5 year old. I had a couple of hours worth of podcasts to listen to for one class....test tomorrow. And then I have the intro to my senior paper also due tomorrow. I'm at a complete loss as to what to write. Praying for inspiration. Wes has been so good, though. We played football for a while and "drove" his RC monster truck for a bit. Not enough....never enough.
No WOD
Food:
Paleo candy bar (seriously not making these again)
Breakfast/Lunch:
eggs w/ bacon
mandarin orange
juice
black coffee
Dinner:
Ben's birthday dinner at Texas Roadhouse. Did well by ordering a 6 oz. sirloin steak and baked sweet potato. Did not do well by also ordering a salad with ranch dressing, and then consuming 3 rolls with cinnamon-honey butter. Also had just a few bites of chocolate birthday cake.
*Will NOT be cheating in this way again. Woke up SO SICK in the middle of the night. Not worth it.
Sunday, October 17th
No WOD.
Food:
Breakfast:
Paleo candy bar (I'm so sick of these now)
black coffee
grapefruit
Snacks:
green olives
sm. handful cinnamon graham Goldfish (too hungry...FAIL)
mandarin orange
Dinner:
Garlic and onion seasoned shrimp w/ avocado and sweet potato fries....um, I don't want to brag, but this is the best dinner I've made in a long time. So good.
Rough, rough day. Jason is not well and stayed in bed. I took Wes to the UTSA library with me....adventurous for a 5 year old. I had a couple of hours worth of podcasts to listen to for one class....test tomorrow. And then I have the intro to my senior paper also due tomorrow. I'm at a complete loss as to what to write. Praying for inspiration. Wes has been so good, though. We played football for a while and "drove" his RC monster truck for a bit. Not enough....never enough.
Friday, October 15, 2010
Where do I put this?
You ever have one of those days when someone says something that just gets so far under your skin that you cannot stop thinking about it for even one solid minute? It hits a nerve and stays there. And then you have to decide what to do with it....because it's not going to just go away. You're forced into a position of categorizing it, just so it will shut up and quit mocking you. You can't just stand there and hold it.
That happened to me this morning at the end of the 5 am class. Someone who shall remain nameless made a point of telling me "If there had been any more running, you woulda beat me....I'm so happy not to be last anymore."..... It stung at the time, got a little more inflamed as the morning wore on, and then full on raged for the rest of the day. (And for the record, I was NOT the last one finished....but this person has made more than one mention of beating me in the WOD time....Look, dude, it's not that hard. *insert eyeroll here*)
The question of just what I should do with this...this thorn, splinter, whatever nagging thing you want to call it...bothered me all day long. For most of the day I actually planned to go back and re-WOD with the 5:30 pm class, hoping to go faster and heavier than 12 hours before. But what if I didn't? What if as a result of fatigue I just wasn't able to? What if I crashed and burned and failed to best my initial time? Wasn't sure I could handle that failure on an emotional and mental level today. I was prepared to show up, child in tow, just to prove that I could do it AGAIN, but I think the poison had built up in my system during the day to the point that I was dizzy with a throbbing headache. I psyched myself out of it.
It's been a rough week in that regard...emotional and mental. School is wearing me down like never before. Work is so busy that I've begun to get confused on documents and who wants what and when. Jason's been sick. I'm getting anxious. And the only thing I really want to do is CrossFit, because now it's my therapy. I've cried more this week than I have in a long time. And I need to work it out.
I want to do it because I want to be proud of myself. I want my coaches to be proud of me. I want my husband to be proud of me. I want my son to tell kids on the playground "My mommy can beat up your mommy"....(I'm kidding....sort of). I want to not wear skinny jeans, not because my ass is too big, but because my quads are. We all have ridiculous little dreams for ourselves, only I'm starting to realize that maybe mine aren't so ridiculous.
I've taken a somewhat shy and quiet approach to the WODs up to this point. Stay in the corner, keep your head down, don't make too much noise and no one will notice you. No more. I'm emotional in everything I do and CrossFit should be no exception. What I've taken pains to internalize needs to come out. I'm still working out grief and anger and sadness. Let the sweat pour. And if I have to show up everyday 20 minutes before 5 am, war paint (read: makeup) on...because it makes me feel better, wrists taped, knee Biofreezed and ibuprophened, and fully caffeinated, I will. Enjoy those few weeks you had the pleasure of beating me. Because it won't happen again.
So, *unnamed person*, congratulations. Or maybe I should say thank you. Your flippant words sparked something. Now stand back and watch the fire rage. And try not to get burned.
That happened to me this morning at the end of the 5 am class. Someone who shall remain nameless made a point of telling me "If there had been any more running, you woulda beat me....I'm so happy not to be last anymore."..... It stung at the time, got a little more inflamed as the morning wore on, and then full on raged for the rest of the day. (And for the record, I was NOT the last one finished....but this person has made more than one mention of beating me in the WOD time....Look, dude, it's not that hard. *insert eyeroll here*)
The question of just what I should do with this...this thorn, splinter, whatever nagging thing you want to call it...bothered me all day long. For most of the day I actually planned to go back and re-WOD with the 5:30 pm class, hoping to go faster and heavier than 12 hours before. But what if I didn't? What if as a result of fatigue I just wasn't able to? What if I crashed and burned and failed to best my initial time? Wasn't sure I could handle that failure on an emotional and mental level today. I was prepared to show up, child in tow, just to prove that I could do it AGAIN, but I think the poison had built up in my system during the day to the point that I was dizzy with a throbbing headache. I psyched myself out of it.
It's been a rough week in that regard...emotional and mental. School is wearing me down like never before. Work is so busy that I've begun to get confused on documents and who wants what and when. Jason's been sick. I'm getting anxious. And the only thing I really want to do is CrossFit, because now it's my therapy. I've cried more this week than I have in a long time. And I need to work it out.
I want to do it because I want to be proud of myself. I want my coaches to be proud of me. I want my husband to be proud of me. I want my son to tell kids on the playground "My mommy can beat up your mommy"....(I'm kidding....sort of). I want to not wear skinny jeans, not because my ass is too big, but because my quads are. We all have ridiculous little dreams for ourselves, only I'm starting to realize that maybe mine aren't so ridiculous.
I've taken a somewhat shy and quiet approach to the WODs up to this point. Stay in the corner, keep your head down, don't make too much noise and no one will notice you. No more. I'm emotional in everything I do and CrossFit should be no exception. What I've taken pains to internalize needs to come out. I'm still working out grief and anger and sadness. Let the sweat pour. And if I have to show up everyday 20 minutes before 5 am, war paint (read: makeup) on...because it makes me feel better, wrists taped, knee Biofreezed and ibuprophened, and fully caffeinated, I will. Enjoy those few weeks you had the pleasure of beating me. Because it won't happen again.
So, *unnamed person*, congratulations. Or maybe I should say thank you. Your flippant words sparked something. Now stand back and watch the fire rage. And try not to get burned.
Friday, October 15th
WOD:
2 rounds cals
2 sets of 15 ring-rows, then 2 sets of 10
"Pick a Lift"
200 m sprint
8 overhead squats
200 m sprint
8 clean & jerks
200 m sprint
8 front squats
200 m sprint
8 back squats
12:50 (OHS @ 35lbs, others @ 55)
Should have sucked it up and gone 65. Stop over-thinking it. Looking forward to next week.
Food:
Breakfast:
eggs & ham
strawberries
juice
Lunch:
beef vegetable soup
2 mandarins
lil' bit of leftover roast later in the day
Dinner:
seasoned shrimp and avocado
*Paleo FAIL: more raspberry yogurt covered pretzels. And now I feel like crap.
2 rounds cals
2 sets of 15 ring-rows, then 2 sets of 10
"Pick a Lift"
200 m sprint
8 overhead squats
200 m sprint
8 clean & jerks
200 m sprint
8 front squats
200 m sprint
8 back squats
12:50 (OHS @ 35lbs, others @ 55)
Should have sucked it up and gone 65. Stop over-thinking it. Looking forward to next week.
Food:
Breakfast:
eggs & ham
strawberries
juice
Lunch:
beef vegetable soup
2 mandarins
lil' bit of leftover roast later in the day
Dinner:
seasoned shrimp and avocado
*Paleo FAIL: more raspberry yogurt covered pretzels. And now I feel like crap.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Thursday, October 14th
WOD:
"Nancy"
2 rounds cals, then...
400 m run
15 overhead squats (Rx: 95/65 lbs)
5 Rounds for Time
18:46 (35 lbs)
I wanted so badly to do Rx but practicing with just the 45 lb bar I knew that my form was suffering. It's that wide grip with heavier weight that I need to work on, but I'd rather go lighter weight with good and proper form than heavy and sloppy. Even with the light weight, the nerve in my left arm is still bothering me. This time, just in my wrist. Felt it firing during the OHS but not until the last few in each round. Don't know what to do about it now except just ignore it.
I'm getting impatient about reaching my Rx goals, but practice is supposed to make perfect. So, keep at it. In August I set a one year goal for myself to reach Rx for everything. That was before I knew about muscle-ups....those may be the one exception....the one ugly and painful exception.
Food:
Breakfast:
Eggs w/ Canadian Bacon
mixed 100% juice
One Paleo candy bar on the way to work. Will not be making these again....because I can't seem to stay away from them. I can't Paleofy junk food and expect to win this challenge. I went for 30 days without one bit of sweetener (real or artificial). It wasn't that hard. Do it again.
Lunch:
Vegetable beef soup
apple
Dinner:
Top sirloin steak, avocado
watermelon
"Nancy"
2 rounds cals, then...
400 m run
15 overhead squats (Rx: 95/65 lbs)
5 Rounds for Time
18:46 (35 lbs)
I wanted so badly to do Rx but practicing with just the 45 lb bar I knew that my form was suffering. It's that wide grip with heavier weight that I need to work on, but I'd rather go lighter weight with good and proper form than heavy and sloppy. Even with the light weight, the nerve in my left arm is still bothering me. This time, just in my wrist. Felt it firing during the OHS but not until the last few in each round. Don't know what to do about it now except just ignore it.
I'm getting impatient about reaching my Rx goals, but practice is supposed to make perfect. So, keep at it. In August I set a one year goal for myself to reach Rx for everything. That was before I knew about muscle-ups....those may be the one exception....the one ugly and painful exception.
Food:
Breakfast:
Eggs w/ Canadian Bacon
mixed 100% juice
One Paleo candy bar on the way to work. Will not be making these again....because I can't seem to stay away from them. I can't Paleofy junk food and expect to win this challenge. I went for 30 days without one bit of sweetener (real or artificial). It wasn't that hard. Do it again.
Lunch:
Vegetable beef soup
apple
Dinner:
Top sirloin steak, avocado
watermelon
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Wednesday, October 13th
I think I'm over yesterday's little funk. Praise Jesus!....because, truly, I just can't stand myself when I'm down.
FANTASTIC WOD to start the day didn't hurt, either.
WOD:
"Grimey"
2 rounds cals
1 Clean & Jerk
1 round of "Cindy" (5 pullups, 10 pushups, 15 squats)
2 Clean & Jerks
1 round of "Cindy"
3 Clean & Jerks
1 round of Cindy
....all the way up to 10 C&J and 1 round of "Cindy"
25:28 (55 lbs)...next time go heavier. Rx was 115, clearly not happening....but it will. :)
I had to pick up some documents before coming in to the office this morning, so I got to drive around in this beautiful fall sunshine for a bit. Seems to be just what I needed. Feeling great today.
Food:
Breakfast:
Paleo candy bar (this might be a breakfast fail)
OJ/grapefruit juice
pecans
Lunch:
Herb Dijon chicken breast and oven roasted dill carrots from Central Market. Loved both. Carrots may have been roasted with a bit of butter....butter is not Paleo but we'll just pretend we don't know about it.
Also had some cherry yogurt covered pretzels...because I wanted them.
Dinner:
Um, well....I didn't cheat, but I didn't exactly have dinner, either. I did have a mandarin and a Paleo candy bar and some watermelon. Oh, and definitely some of my juice...but no meat or vegetables. I just wasn't really hungry...and I was watching the last miner rescue...and we went to the park...and then I got busy preparing beef vegetable soup for the next day. (We'll just go ahead and call this a fail.)
FANTASTIC WOD to start the day didn't hurt, either.
WOD:
"Grimey"
2 rounds cals
1 Clean & Jerk
1 round of "Cindy" (5 pullups, 10 pushups, 15 squats)
2 Clean & Jerks
1 round of "Cindy"
3 Clean & Jerks
1 round of Cindy
....all the way up to 10 C&J and 1 round of "Cindy"
25:28 (55 lbs)...next time go heavier. Rx was 115, clearly not happening....but it will. :)
I had to pick up some documents before coming in to the office this morning, so I got to drive around in this beautiful fall sunshine for a bit. Seems to be just what I needed. Feeling great today.
Food:
Breakfast:
Paleo candy bar (this might be a breakfast fail)
OJ/grapefruit juice
pecans
Lunch:
Herb Dijon chicken breast and oven roasted dill carrots from Central Market. Loved both. Carrots may have been roasted with a bit of butter....butter is not Paleo but we'll just pretend we don't know about it.
Also had some cherry yogurt covered pretzels...because I wanted them.
Dinner:
Um, well....I didn't cheat, but I didn't exactly have dinner, either. I did have a mandarin and a Paleo candy bar and some watermelon. Oh, and definitely some of my juice...but no meat or vegetables. I just wasn't really hungry...and I was watching the last miner rescue...and we went to the park...and then I got busy preparing beef vegetable soup for the next day. (We'll just go ahead and call this a fail.)
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Tuesday, October 12th
No WOD - *rest day*
I had my alarm set and then snoozed right on through the last early morning class. Wish I could say the extra sleep was worth it, but I didn't actually get any extra sleep. Fail.
Food:
Breakfast:
few strawberries, very few pecans
black coffee to hopefully make me a nicer person (or at least help me tolerate others)
Just don't feel like eating this morning. Tired and stressed.
Lunch:
Roast w/ carrots & mushrooms
Snack:
1 mandarin, 1 apple
few pecans
Dinner:
Shrimp seasoned with this fantastic little packet of chicken fajita seasoning I got in the bulk/"healthy living" section at HEB. Will stock up on this stuff.
1/2 avocado
Treat:
Paleo Candy Bars (coconut oil, shredded coconut, honey, pecans, cocoa powder)
*saved me from running out to Baskin Robbins like I wanted to do.
Didn't enjoy this day. Spent most of it being frustrated with all I have to do for work and school and at home and missed several opportunities to just give thanks and be grateful that I have so much. I take on too much and try to control it all and then am surprised when I reach the point of being overwhelmed. But the day ended well. Man-cub fell asleep in the car and stayed asleep once we got home. This is not the good part...I missed not getting some time with him....but I did check on him several times and smell his hair and kiss his sweet, soft cheeks. I made a quick dinner and sat down on the couch with Hubs and we finished a great little movie that we had started over the weekend... "City Island" with Andy Garcia and Julianna Margulies. Loved it. We ate our Paleo candy bars and were happy just to "be" for a little while. Laundry and dishes will always be there...the people you love might not. Take the time. You won't regret it.
I had my alarm set and then snoozed right on through the last early morning class. Wish I could say the extra sleep was worth it, but I didn't actually get any extra sleep. Fail.
Food:
Breakfast:
few strawberries, very few pecans
black coffee to hopefully make me a nicer person (or at least help me tolerate others)
Just don't feel like eating this morning. Tired and stressed.
Lunch:
Roast w/ carrots & mushrooms
Snack:
1 mandarin, 1 apple
few pecans
Dinner:
Shrimp seasoned with this fantastic little packet of chicken fajita seasoning I got in the bulk/"healthy living" section at HEB. Will stock up on this stuff.
1/2 avocado
Treat:
Paleo Candy Bars (coconut oil, shredded coconut, honey, pecans, cocoa powder)
*saved me from running out to Baskin Robbins like I wanted to do.
Didn't enjoy this day. Spent most of it being frustrated with all I have to do for work and school and at home and missed several opportunities to just give thanks and be grateful that I have so much. I take on too much and try to control it all and then am surprised when I reach the point of being overwhelmed. But the day ended well. Man-cub fell asleep in the car and stayed asleep once we got home. This is not the good part...I missed not getting some time with him....but I did check on him several times and smell his hair and kiss his sweet, soft cheeks. I made a quick dinner and sat down on the couch with Hubs and we finished a great little movie that we had started over the weekend... "City Island" with Andy Garcia and Julianna Margulies. Loved it. We ate our Paleo candy bars and were happy just to "be" for a little while. Laundry and dishes will always be there...the people you love might not. Take the time. You won't regret it.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Monday, October 11th
WOD:
"Redskins"
2 rounds cals (jumping jacks, shuffle splits, pushups, lunges, stretch)
50 chins buy-in (on the clock)
15 DB thrusters (25 lbs)
15 slam balls (10 lb)
15 burpees
15 knees to elbows
3 Rounds for Time
19:45
Food:
Breakfast:
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
small portion of roast beef/carrots/mushrooms
black coffee
*feeling VERY run-down this morning....not enough sleep on Saturday night, went to bed too late Sunday night, awesomely rough Monday WOD.
Lunch:
roast beef/carrots/mushrooms
2 mandarin oranges
Snack:
raspberry yogurt covered pretzels...about 6 or 8 of them
*This was a conscious decision on my part...I know they're not Paleo. I also know I was in the middle of what turned out to be an hour and a half long trip through the grocery store with my child....bless his sweet and helpful heart. I was tired and hungry and fading and needed something right then. This is what I chose. And I'm okay with that.
Dinner:
small handful of pecans
few strawberries
OJ/grapefruit juice
Mondays sap me of all energy and I'm too tired to make an actual effort to have dinner.
NOTE: I do not track the amount of water that I drink, primarily because I think that one should drink as much as possible or as much as their body requires on any given day. I do not weigh or measure my food because doing so makes me anxious. The less anxiety I have, the better my experience with food and performance. So there.
"Redskins"
2 rounds cals (jumping jacks, shuffle splits, pushups, lunges, stretch)
50 chins buy-in (on the clock)
15 DB thrusters (25 lbs)
15 slam balls (10 lb)
15 burpees
15 knees to elbows
3 Rounds for Time
19:45
Food:
Breakfast:
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
small portion of roast beef/carrots/mushrooms
black coffee
*feeling VERY run-down this morning....not enough sleep on Saturday night, went to bed too late Sunday night, awesomely rough Monday WOD.
Lunch:
roast beef/carrots/mushrooms
2 mandarin oranges
Snack:
raspberry yogurt covered pretzels...about 6 or 8 of them
*This was a conscious decision on my part...I know they're not Paleo. I also know I was in the middle of what turned out to be an hour and a half long trip through the grocery store with my child....bless his sweet and helpful heart. I was tired and hungry and fading and needed something right then. This is what I chose. And I'm okay with that.
Dinner:
small handful of pecans
few strawberries
OJ/grapefruit juice
Mondays sap me of all energy and I'm too tired to make an actual effort to have dinner.
NOTE: I do not track the amount of water that I drink, primarily because I think that one should drink as much as possible or as much as their body requires on any given day. I do not weigh or measure my food because doing so makes me anxious. The less anxiety I have, the better my experience with food and performance. So there.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Saturday/Sunday, Oct. 9th & 10th
Saturday:
No WOD
Breakfast:
Eggs w/ Canadian bacon
mandarin orange
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
black coffee
Dinner:
Bigz single burger (sans bun) w/avocado, bacon, lettuce, tomato, pickle, lil' bit of kalamata mayo
1/2 baby watermelon
*HUGE win for me: I practiced extreme restraint in avoiding my boy's birthday cake. Go me.
Saturday night was ROUGH. Wes had a post-party meltdown right before bed. Then came the night terror (worst one ever) around 2:30 am. Neighbor girl's college party went until 6 a.m....complete with what sounded like a fight around 3 a.m., followed by random mid-street yelling. I'm starting to dislike her intensely.
Sunday
No WOD
Breakfast/Lunch:
Eggs w/ leftover roast, carrots, mushrooms
black coffee
Zoo day with family...packed a couple of mandarins to snack on. Also had a bit of beef jerky and a few sips of Hubs' Diet DP. And a kid size cherry limeade from Sonic. Should have planned more snacks.
Dinner:
Seasoned steak w/ guacamole
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
Watermelon
No WOD
Breakfast:
Eggs w/ Canadian bacon
mandarin orange
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
black coffee
Dinner:
Bigz single burger (sans bun) w/avocado, bacon, lettuce, tomato, pickle, lil' bit of kalamata mayo
1/2 baby watermelon
*HUGE win for me: I practiced extreme restraint in avoiding my boy's birthday cake. Go me.
Saturday night was ROUGH. Wes had a post-party meltdown right before bed. Then came the night terror (worst one ever) around 2:30 am. Neighbor girl's college party went until 6 a.m....complete with what sounded like a fight around 3 a.m., followed by random mid-street yelling. I'm starting to dislike her intensely.
Sunday
No WOD
Breakfast/Lunch:
Eggs w/ leftover roast, carrots, mushrooms
black coffee
Zoo day with family...packed a couple of mandarins to snack on. Also had a bit of beef jerky and a few sips of Hubs' Diet DP. And a kid size cherry limeade from Sonic. Should have planned more snacks.
Dinner:
Seasoned steak w/ guacamole
mixed OJ/grapefruit juice
Watermelon
Friday, October 8, 2010
Friday, October 8th
WOD:
"Jack"
2 rounds cals
2" double unders practice
10 push press
10 KB swings
10 box jumps
AMRAP 20"
6 rounds (55 lb push press, 35 lb KB, Rx box jumps for 3 rounds)
*Note to self: Next time we do KB swings, I will move up to the 45 lb. It will be hard, but this isn't supposed to be easy. Been using the 35 for a while and it's just time.
Food:
Pre-WOD OJ
Breakfast
eggs w/ ham
Lunch
baked chicken w/ carrots, garlic
Dinner
beef fajita meat, watermelon
my favorite mixed orange/grapefruit juices
"Jack"
2 rounds cals
2" double unders practice
10 push press
10 KB swings
10 box jumps
AMRAP 20"
6 rounds (55 lb push press, 35 lb KB, Rx box jumps for 3 rounds)
*Note to self: Next time we do KB swings, I will move up to the 45 lb. It will be hard, but this isn't supposed to be easy. Been using the 35 for a while and it's just time.
Food:
Pre-WOD OJ
Breakfast
eggs w/ ham
Lunch
baked chicken w/ carrots, garlic
Dinner
beef fajita meat, watermelon
my favorite mixed orange/grapefruit juices
Look Ma! I'm published!!.....sorta
So, at the start of the Dulce challenge, everyone had to submit a short essay explaining why they were participating. The other name for this is the "Look Better Naked in Six Weeks Challenge"....not at all off the mark. Because we all want to. Yes, even you.
But it's more than that for me. It's alright to be multi-faceted. Sure, there's the physical desire to look better, run faster, lift heavier, jump higher. But there's also that side that I so long neglected....the emotional one. I understand that a lot of what I write has a strong tendency to be emotional. I'm okay with that. It's authentic, and if it's not authentic then it's not worth doing.
My point is.....someone noticed. Someone noticed and made a conscious decision to write something ABOUT my words. The multi-syllabic ribbons that I put together in my head and then in visible form served as inspiration for another human being. And they told the world about it. I'm so awe-struck I don't know how to say exactly how I feel. I just know that it feels really good and it made me smile and cry and give thanks for this amazing group of people that have befriended me and brought me into their fold.
Please don't think that I do not appreciate the unspeakably kind and wonderful comments that I have received from my family and friends about what I write here in this little corner of space. I remember each one of them and go back to them any time I need encouragement.
What I am referring to is Rick's blog post on alamocrossfit.com yesterday. That's my essay that he shares. The only portion he so kindly and thoughtfully withheld was the part where I owned up to losing 5 years of my life to depression. Some people might not be okay with reading about that, but I'm okay with it now. I made my way out of those dark and tangled woods (not without the help of family and my dearest friends) and I can say now that I am truly living the sweet life.
Thank you, Rick. I cannot say enough about what this tribe means to me. Thank you for inviting me in. Por vida.
Here's the link to see for yourself (may have to cut and paste):
http://www.alamocrossfit.com/?p=3443
But it's more than that for me. It's alright to be multi-faceted. Sure, there's the physical desire to look better, run faster, lift heavier, jump higher. But there's also that side that I so long neglected....the emotional one. I understand that a lot of what I write has a strong tendency to be emotional. I'm okay with that. It's authentic, and if it's not authentic then it's not worth doing.
My point is.....someone noticed. Someone noticed and made a conscious decision to write something ABOUT my words. The multi-syllabic ribbons that I put together in my head and then in visible form served as inspiration for another human being. And they told the world about it. I'm so awe-struck I don't know how to say exactly how I feel. I just know that it feels really good and it made me smile and cry and give thanks for this amazing group of people that have befriended me and brought me into their fold.
Please don't think that I do not appreciate the unspeakably kind and wonderful comments that I have received from my family and friends about what I write here in this little corner of space. I remember each one of them and go back to them any time I need encouragement.
What I am referring to is Rick's blog post on alamocrossfit.com yesterday. That's my essay that he shares. The only portion he so kindly and thoughtfully withheld was the part where I owned up to losing 5 years of my life to depression. Some people might not be okay with reading about that, but I'm okay with it now. I made my way out of those dark and tangled woods (not without the help of family and my dearest friends) and I can say now that I am truly living the sweet life.
Thank you, Rick. I cannot say enough about what this tribe means to me. Thank you for inviting me in. Por vida.
Here's the link to see for yourself (may have to cut and paste):
http://www.alamocrossfit.com/?p=3443
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Thursday, October 7th
WOD:
"Chasing Tail"
2 rounds cals (jumping jacks, shuffle splits, slam balls, air squats, stretches)
3" planks
1 mile run
50 squats
25 power cleans (Rx 85 lbs)
1 RFT
15:19 (75 lbs)
*This WOD was AWESOME. Jared and I were the only two to show up to the 6:30 class, and I wouldn't have been there at all if I had rolled out of bed at 4 when I was supposed to. It was fun to do that, just the two of us. I never did catch him on the mile run like I planned,but he did holler back some encouragement in the third lap....always appreciated. At least my mile time was under 10 minutes, which is not great but pretty good for not having run a straight mile in many, many moons.
This was one of those WODS that made me slightly nauseous once I started the lifts, but taking them 5 at a time helped. I love it when I have to lay on the box floor for a good while at the end....it means I worked it. Fantastic way to start the day.
Food:
Breakfast
a few pieces of that wadded up sliced ham I found in the fridge (I was starving post-WOD...don't judge)
2 walnuts (would've been more but I discovered that nuts actually do get freezer burn)
mixed orange/grapefruit juice (these are Simply Orange and Simply Grapefruit...NOT from concentrate)
Lunch
roast w/carrots and mushrooms
mandarin orange
Snack
sm. handful walnuts
Dinner
I just realized that I didn't have dinner; hence the starvation that I woke up with on Friday....though I did enjoy a little more of that wadded up ham...just a few slices. Kinda nasty now that I think about it.
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
sparkling water
"Chasing Tail"
2 rounds cals (jumping jacks, shuffle splits, slam balls, air squats, stretches)
3" planks
1 mile run
50 squats
25 power cleans (Rx 85 lbs)
1 RFT
15:19 (75 lbs)
*This WOD was AWESOME. Jared and I were the only two to show up to the 6:30 class, and I wouldn't have been there at all if I had rolled out of bed at 4 when I was supposed to. It was fun to do that, just the two of us. I never did catch him on the mile run like I planned,but he did holler back some encouragement in the third lap....always appreciated. At least my mile time was under 10 minutes, which is not great but pretty good for not having run a straight mile in many, many moons.
This was one of those WODS that made me slightly nauseous once I started the lifts, but taking them 5 at a time helped. I love it when I have to lay on the box floor for a good while at the end....it means I worked it. Fantastic way to start the day.
Food:
Breakfast
a few pieces of that wadded up sliced ham I found in the fridge (I was starving post-WOD...don't judge)
2 walnuts (would've been more but I discovered that nuts actually do get freezer burn)
mixed orange/grapefruit juice (these are Simply Orange and Simply Grapefruit...NOT from concentrate)
Lunch
roast w/carrots and mushrooms
mandarin orange
Snack
sm. handful walnuts
Dinner
I just realized that I didn't have dinner; hence the starvation that I woke up with on Friday....though I did enjoy a little more of that wadded up ham...just a few slices. Kinda nasty now that I think about it.
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
sparkling water
Wednesday, October 6th
WOD:
"Farmer John"
2 rounds cals
1" max airsquats (43)
15 chins
20 wall balls (10 lb)
200 m "farmer walk" w/ dumbells
4 RFT
24:24
I did the first round with 25 lb dumbells but my left elbow started throbbing and my 2 middle fingers lost feeling, meaning I couldn't grip. I can handle pain, but was afraid of dropping the weight and not being able to pick it back up and finish the walk. It sucks when the phalanges don't cooperate and now I look like a lil' weakling with my pitiful "15 lb" written next to my time. Boo.
Food:
Pre-WOD orange juice
Breakfast
eggs w/ ham
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
black coffee
Lunch
baked chicken, carrots, mushrooms
Snacks
2 mandarin oranges
walnuts
banana
Dinner
grilled shrimp, guacamole (avocado, kosher salt, white pepper, lime juice)
watermelon
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
"Farmer John"
2 rounds cals
1" max airsquats (43)
15 chins
20 wall balls (10 lb)
200 m "farmer walk" w/ dumbells
4 RFT
24:24
I did the first round with 25 lb dumbells but my left elbow started throbbing and my 2 middle fingers lost feeling, meaning I couldn't grip. I can handle pain, but was afraid of dropping the weight and not being able to pick it back up and finish the walk. It sucks when the phalanges don't cooperate and now I look like a lil' weakling with my pitiful "15 lb" written next to my time. Boo.
Food:
Pre-WOD orange juice
Breakfast
eggs w/ ham
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
black coffee
Lunch
baked chicken, carrots, mushrooms
Snacks
2 mandarin oranges
walnuts
banana
Dinner
grilled shrimp, guacamole (avocado, kosher salt, white pepper, lime juice)
watermelon
mixed orange/grapefruit juice
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Tuesday, October 5th
WOD:
Rest day (because I can hardly walk from yesterday's thrusters....should have gone anyway)
Food:
Breakfast
eggs w/ham and sausage
orange juice
black coffee
Lunch
baked chicken w/carrots and mushrooms (Bub can COOK!!)
Snack
2 mandarin oranges
cashews
watermelon
Dinner
Mama's roast w/carrots and salad w/cucumbers and tomato, dressed w/olive oil/lemon juice
Snack
grapefruit
Rest day (because I can hardly walk from yesterday's thrusters....should have gone anyway)
Food:
Breakfast
eggs w/ham and sausage
orange juice
black coffee
Lunch
baked chicken w/carrots and mushrooms (Bub can COOK!!)
Snack
2 mandarin oranges
cashews
watermelon
Dinner
Mama's roast w/carrots and salad w/cucumbers and tomato, dressed w/olive oil/lemon juice
Snack
grapefruit
Monday, October 4th
WOD:
"Major Bullfit"
2 rounds cals
400m run
75 power snatches
75 thrusters
(75/55 Rx)
Rounds of 12/12, 11/11, 10/10, etc. down to 1/1
Time: 18:26 (35 lbs)
I did Rx for the first round of 12, quickly realizing that this would not end well. Dropped 20 lbs off and did 35 for the remaining rounds. Should have gone with 45 because I know I could have. Next time....
Food:
Pre-WOD
2 oz. Simply Orange OJ
Breakfast
egg w/ ham
sm grapefruit
black coffee
Lunch
pot roast w/ carrots, mushrooms
Snack
13.5 oz Simply Orange OJ
sm handful of cashews (I am so not supposed to have nuts)
SF/GF turkey slices
Dinner
shrimp sauteed in olive oil and lemon juice, salad with pine nuts and yellow tomatoes and dressed with olive oil/lemon juice.
Mixed Simply Orange OJ/Grapefruit juices
"Major Bullfit"
2 rounds cals
400m run
75 power snatches
75 thrusters
(75/55 Rx)
Rounds of 12/12, 11/11, 10/10, etc. down to 1/1
Time: 18:26 (35 lbs)
I did Rx for the first round of 12, quickly realizing that this would not end well. Dropped 20 lbs off and did 35 for the remaining rounds. Should have gone with 45 because I know I could have. Next time....
Food:
Pre-WOD
2 oz. Simply Orange OJ
Breakfast
egg w/ ham
sm grapefruit
black coffee
Lunch
pot roast w/ carrots, mushrooms
Snack
13.5 oz Simply Orange OJ
sm handful of cashews (I am so not supposed to have nuts)
SF/GF turkey slices
Dinner
shrimp sauteed in olive oil and lemon juice, salad with pine nuts and yellow tomatoes and dressed with olive oil/lemon juice.
Mixed Simply Orange OJ/Grapefruit juices
Dulce Vida Challenge
I signed up for the Paleo challenge at Alamo Crossfit. I generally hate contests, but I know this is something I can do well. I know the Paleo diet and I know it works for me. The $1,000 prize at the end isn't a bad incentive, either.
As part of the challenge, we must keep both a food log and a WOD log every day for the full six weeks. I've been tracking everything in my colorful little excel spreadsheet, but I'm honestly running out of room. I like to make notes and excel can be a bit stifling when it comes to notes....my notes, that is. I make notes on everything, about everything....on the backs of envelopes, on post-its, on store receipts and the occasional napkin. It might be my way of talking to myself. I started to feel claustrophobic within the confines of the spreadsheet cells. I feel free here, so I'm just going to plop down and spill everything here and share it with whomever chooses to read this.
So, welcome. :)
As part of the challenge, we must keep both a food log and a WOD log every day for the full six weeks. I've been tracking everything in my colorful little excel spreadsheet, but I'm honestly running out of room. I like to make notes and excel can be a bit stifling when it comes to notes....my notes, that is. I make notes on everything, about everything....on the backs of envelopes, on post-its, on store receipts and the occasional napkin. It might be my way of talking to myself. I started to feel claustrophobic within the confines of the spreadsheet cells. I feel free here, so I'm just going to plop down and spill everything here and share it with whomever chooses to read this.
So, welcome. :)
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Tuesday Feeling Sorry for Myself
Sometimes I suck at "mom." But at least I try. Yesterday, my little boy turned 5. But it was Monday, which meant that I had work and then class, and then work and then another class. I am just barely treading water this semester and feel like I'm about to go under any second, so I wasn't able to just skip it all and celebrate my little man for a day. I hate this. And I brought it all on myself.
Last year I made the (what now seems incredibly selfish) decision to go back to school. The spring semester was great....I made the Dean's List. I had wonderful professors and had a fresh interest in the material. Now I'm just burned out. I think I got overly excited about things and went into this at a full sprint and then ran out of steam. I'm tired. I go to bed at 11:00 pm and get up at 4:00 am and it's still not enough.
I told myself that I was doing all of this for my son. But that's not true. He doesn't care if I finish school right now. He just wants to tickle and play hide & seek and football and ride bikes. And I'm missing all of it. Someday soon he won't want to do those things with me anymore.
I'm overwhelmed. Spring will be better. I have to believe that.
Last year I made the (what now seems incredibly selfish) decision to go back to school. The spring semester was great....I made the Dean's List. I had wonderful professors and had a fresh interest in the material. Now I'm just burned out. I think I got overly excited about things and went into this at a full sprint and then ran out of steam. I'm tired. I go to bed at 11:00 pm and get up at 4:00 am and it's still not enough.
I told myself that I was doing all of this for my son. But that's not true. He doesn't care if I finish school right now. He just wants to tickle and play hide & seek and football and ride bikes. And I'm missing all of it. Someday soon he won't want to do those things with me anymore.
I'm overwhelmed. Spring will be better. I have to believe that.
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