Why I Don't Miss Facebook....

I left Facebook.

Yup. I sure did. It almost makes me feel like a superhero.

Almost.

Disappear from Facebook and you might as well drop off the face of the Earth....

I don't miss it. At all, actually.

I re-activated a couple of weeks ago just to pop on to see if I was missing anything.... I wasn't. Honestly, I could not back out of there fast enough. "Deactivate your account"? YES, PLEASE.

I'm not even sure what it is, really. I was just getting annoyed. And bored. Lost even.

Facebook can be a wonderful thing. But for me it became a huge distraction. I no longer have my iPhone glued to my hand. I no longer have a dedicated tab opened to Facebook, running in the background behind Word documents and Westlaw. You know, just so I don't miss anything. As a result, my office is clean and organized for the first time in years. That's not at all embarrassing.

Maybe I just felt like I didn't belong at the party anymore. Insecurity. Instead of sitting alone at the table off to the side, maybe I just decided to go home.

Home.

I like home.

I'm sure I'll go back to Facebook.....sometime. Maybe. But not now. And not soon.

I'm discovering my own life. And how much I love it. And maybe it's that I want to hold close what's mine and shut out the world for a little bit.

I take long walks everyday now. Yesterday, I sat in the lush green grass and played with my barefoot baby girl, quietly watching her little hands to make sure they hadn't picked up a dropped acorn on the sly.

For the first time possibly ever, I am someone's favorite. She will choose me over anyone. ANYONE. And I love it. It was surprising at first. Still is. But I relish it. When I pick her up she excitedly pats my shoulder with both hands, her face shining joy with two teeth. If someone else offers to take her, she looks at me, smiles, and excitedly pats my shoulder with both hands again. She chooses me. And every time she does it, she rebuilds a thin layer of confidence that's been lacking.

Why would I want to miss one minute of that for something on Facebook?

I wouldn't.